I commence a sort of formal chakra based meditation, with tones, that has a physical component based in pilates. not because these ways are more right, but because they work for me.

i am so grateful, it wouldn’t be giving enough of me not to write that having the meditation practice in place makes it all happen. takes-em-long-time and harrowing but eventually like catching balance on a bike, it sets in. later i learned i could have used any method at all, anything from religion to true athleticism to crystal transmission to searing rock and roll, anything to get to meditation, to get inside, but there has to be an inside of something, and that’s ‘reality,’ that sense of certainty that barely pulls away from the tensions of possibility, the atoms of story, each set of eyes the creator of the seen.