i knew if i opened the laptop that still only the staring in silence would continue.  i’m keeping the subfloor of my thinking washed in light, only after that do i heed any thoughts, but pretty much I get one or two thoughts, and I have to go right back to illuminating the subfloor by quickly connecting all the chakras with light.  causes me to let go at the blocked places.  breathe breathe.  makes it difficult to think about anything.

which could save me in an emergency.

the light healing definitely got done, even testing it back in chicago, using this blue quartz, which might even be glass,  I’m just going to keep that light field around me, and don’t think it’s a coincidence that out of no prompting Tami sent me an angel mobile, just for fun, and it was in the mailbox with the testy documents.  she came all the way back from imagined witness protection, resulting in the angel mobile landing in my mailbox today.  these are my spirit people, they look crackpot, and already I have on a hippie dress and earthy crunchy sandals, and I’m going to get through the storm in this mode, because it has worked every time before.  thank gods I can See from here pretty well.  this journey would be burning hell in babylon mode.   I haven’t unwrapped the mobile yet.  It will be subLIME. the fancier the better. I will keep it always.